Nine Months Without You

'Nine Months Without You'

It's been nine months without you

How can it be? 

My heart feels so broken

You're not here but you should be

You should be three months old 

With a mirror image of you

Because there was not one babe

There was two

Nine months we lost you our sweet baby girl

Your soccer like kicks made my heart soar

Then suddenly you were gone, so quickly you left

Your daddy and I heart broken

Your sister left without her sister who was at rest

Then the next day after fighting off the fears held inside

Your sister, she left us too, both sitting still inside

No more dancer ballerina kicks or kicks left at all

Only broken, shattered hopes and dreams

Left without anything at all

Then after eighteen days we met you both

I almost didn't make it through

And even though they were sad tears

We were happy to see and hold you two

You both should be three to four months old

Had you only made it to term

But here we are with empty arms 

Only left with our memories

The next months ahead will be hard to deal

Each day it's harder to breathe 

Hoping we expect another soon

So we'll have a future to plan and dream

August 30th we learned we were pregnant 

Before we learned there were two

Oh our precious, identical, beautiful girls

How your mommy and daddy miss and forever love you

(c) written by Evelyn Schwenke,Friday, August 9th 2013