The Aching Heart

Sometimes your heart hurts so very much you feel the pain is too much to bear. That feeling is because of the love you hold in your heart. At times it may feel like you're breaking apart, worry not as the scar will hold you together. You miss them, they are not here to hold near you. You are not alone. On the wings of butterflies, through snow flake kisses, from the rain drop tears, a beautiful rainbow, a sparkle in the night's star lit sky; they will send you their sign. 

This message is for all of us who have, are and will feel this pain. It took time to realize why my heart must ache so. It may hurt but when it does I'm reminded of how much love I hold inside. Our children are no longer with us, but because they remain in our hearts they will live on forever. 

Held and loved all their life, our beautiful, identical twin daughters Apple Marie and Banana Lee. Their memory lives on, everything I do is for them. To live and continue forward, I live for you because you babies can not. Your lives and memory will forever be remembered. 

Today remembering and missing our twins. They made me a mother. Just hoping we are blessed with our rainbow because I have so much love to give. This may be what heals my heart and helps me right now but I feel my true calling in this life is to be a mother. To have that moment taken too soon and to wait that much longer, it is unfair and bittersweet. I long to have what so many have. A baby, that is what we always have dreamed of. There is no questioning if they are wanted. 

Someday it will happen. One way or another. Much love to you all!