Our long and lean baby officially is being given extra calories from pumped breastmilk and formula to help him gain weight. For some reason even with giving at least an extra 2oz a day he's only gained 3 ounces in four weeks, that's not good.
Last appointment's vaccinations were extra difficult to bounce back from, more teething too. With how his breastfeeding changed last month I suspect he could have lost some weight and recently gained it back (he felt heavier..), or I feel he could have a high matabilisum and/or burning more calories, or just not getting enough fat and sweating too much.
I must have cried at least a dozen times since home from our 5 month appointment (to get the other vaccination, of which he is extra sleepy from this one too) and now back to pumping and plan to do everything I can to keep my breastmilk supply from dropping or drying up.
All this worry stresses me out terribly. I'm at my wits end, feel like I won't be nursing for too much longer because for every bottle he gets he becomes more frustrated at the breast. I feel horrible that my breasts just can't flow quickly like a bottle can.
Trying to take this one day at a time and praying we can at least nurse up to a year. Asked the pediatrician about when to begin solids because our son had been really interested in what we've been eating, trying to reach out and grab it even. If given the ok seriously considering starting solids to help see it can help him get more calories so he can gain weight.
Our breastfeeding story had been a struggle but I thought it was finally a success. Now I know (like what the nurse said and what felt like in the most rude and harsh way possible) that some woman just aren't able to produce enough milk and have to supplement. That nurse doesn't know our history with breastfeeding and how far we've come, but I suppose none of that matters now.
I want our son to be ok and to gain weight. I'll do what I have to but that doesn't mean I won't grieve about it in the process.
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