Sometimes I wish I lived in a world where I could just hide from the truth, act like it all never happened and just continue forward like the baby we are carrying is our first. But I can not lie to myself and I feel that is being dishonest to our children too, although they are angels they were all still alive once.
I have only said yes a few times in reply to someone who asks, "Is this your first?" I only reply yes to those who I feel will not understand when or if I say yes, our first earthly child.
What am I afraid of? I've been so open about our angels that there should be no fear in speaking what is in my heart. I've come this far, I need to keep going.
I promise you our dear angel babies to speak of you and when the situation arises I will be braver than before. I will not let your memories go forgotten, your lives although short are just as important as everyone else. It is other people who have a problem with the subject of fetal/infant and child death, not your momma.
All our children have been a part of me and for that I'm blessed, I just wish all our children had made it to term and beyond. We have so many hopes and dreams for our current baby, our snowflake rainbow due in August. Want to stay as positive, stress free and hopeful as possible for the best outcome!
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