My Scar To Bear

I awoke this morning with aches and pains, this occurs at least once a month around my scar. Perhaps it is our babies reminding me that they were real, our time with them and our loss most certainly happened.

I decided to take a few photos, this is what I created and decided to share on my Fruit Of The Womb TTTS Angels Facebook page. It was mentioned that I may want to share this here too on my blog, here is the photo and also a short story to go with it. 

Back before our expected due date our hearts were heavy. My husband and I were missing our daughter's again like no other and wanting to proceed forward getting our memorial tattoos. 
Because our girls were named Apple Marie and Banana Lee, we wanted to get a tattoo of an apple and a banana together. Born in December, the snow reminds us so much of our twins and we had two snow flakes inked between our apple and banana. While we were having our tattoos done one person asked, "Fruit of the Loom?", our tattoo artist said, "no, it's a long story." What I should have done is replied that the tattoos were for our fruit of the womb. 

Since that day the name stuck and I couldn't get it out of my mind, it inspired me to create a fb page in our twin's memory. Fruit Of The Womb TTTS Angels, the TTTS because that is what our babies passed away from, twin twin transfusion syndrome. Eventually I wanted to do more and create a charity, I decided to have slightly different name which is why our charity is named Fruit Of The Womb Angels. 

So funny or ironic enough (depends on how you look at it), the undies are 'Fruit Of The Loom' and I believe this it suits this photo nicely.

This photo to the left is a picture of my memorial tattoo and the first profile picture that I created for our TTTS Facebook page.

Lately I wrote something for our daughters today. I look forward sharing my life with those who visit my blog.

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To our precious babies,
Momma and Daddy know how real you both were. We think of you both often and miss you like no other. You gave us the most amazing 18 weeks, almost 19 weeks. We love you and look forward to the future.
Until we meet again my loves. 
I love you,
~Momma