Originally written for a special album that I had put together filled with pictures to remember our twin girls by. Here is a brief look into our girl's story, how they came to be and how we lost them.
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During July and August 2012 I underwent treatment which we hoped would successfully get me pregnant. IVF was done mid / late August and then we were in the two week wait to find out if it worked.
On August 30th 2012 we found out we were pregnant. Then September learned we were having twins. October and November we watched them grow. We were lucky to learn the sex of the babies too during our last few ultrasound visits. December we learned our babies had twin twin transfusion syndrome and would need a laser surgery to save their lives, without it would be fatal. So on December 7th we ventured forward and did the surgery. Unfortunately the surgery did not help.
On December 9th our baby girl Apple Marie Schwenke passed away. Before she passed she made herself known by strong kicks. I will cherish that feeling forever after weeks of bubbles and flutters.
On December 10th our baby girl Banana Lee Schwenke passed away. Before she passed she also made herself known with kicks. Not as noticeable or as hard as her sister but still there. I will cherish those kicks too.
Apple Marie was our shy little girl during ultrasounds but when it came to kicks she was quite a little kicker. We imagine she would have been our little sporty soccer player.
Banana Lee, also known by Nana to us, was our little dancer during ultrasounds. Always moving and wanting to steal the spotlight. Sometimes trying to punch or kick her sister too. We imagine she would have been our little princess ballerina.
I did not labor them during my time in the hospital when our girls passed away. So after Christmas we returned to the hospital to be induced.
On December 28th after 15 hours of labor and with 9+ hours of that being back labor, our Apple Marie was born at 11:20am and Banana Lee was born at 11:30am. It took another two hours to labor everything else.
We were able to spend time with our girls after they were born, hold them and make the few memories we have with them.
I was able to spend the night with our girls. And the next morning and day on December 29th we spent the final hours with our babies, hold them, and say our goodbyes.
On December 31st it snowed again, just like they day they were born, however this day we went to a funeral home to make arrangements for our baby girls.
Our baby girls are being cremated and will be resting in a beautiful urn that reminds us of them, white and beautiful like the snow.
One day, many years from now after both of us have passed away, we all will be reunited again.
Our beautiful identical twin baby girls that passed away too soon. Reminding us of them when the snow would fall on the day they would have been 20 weeks old on December 20th, then reminding us of them again on the day they came into this world on December 28th, and most recently reminding us of them again on December 31st. Therefore to be known as our Snow Angel Babies.
We will always remember our baby girls, never forget them, always will miss them and love them. We want to do right by our girls and honor their memory.
We love you our babies!!! Forever and Ever!!! ♥
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