Why?!

My heart, oh my heart. I miss them. Why should we have to start all over again? This isn't fair or right or how it should be.

Why does this have to be our reality? What makes us stronger than other people? What makes others deserve a family while ours die and leave us empty?

I feel so lost right now.

Doing things for others does help my heart, no lie, but I've been ignoring my feelings and my heart has been bottled up while being there for others.

I feel like a need a day, week and month away from it all. But I can't, I won't, I feel responsible now for so many. It would feel wrong to not be there for our charity and not be there for our pages. I do so much more now than months ago. Life has more meaning and purpose now. It's a good thing.

I wish my heart could be healed. We need our rainbow baby! I believe both our hearts would begin healing if we only had the future of another child to focus on.

Trying to hold onto hope. Despite the fact that my heart is wanting to break right now.